fiona was here
wishing she had a clever tagline

I seem to be having this problem with chronic depression. I had assumed, for the longest time, that it was simply a situational response to the medical tragedy that calls itself my body. I mean, who wouldn't be depressed if they felt too shitty to live life? But apparently I'm really fighting an uphill battle here because I have recently discovered that the same protein that's making my poor colon and fascia inflamed, also causes depression.

1. The relation of severity of depressive symptoms to monocyte-associated proinflammatory cytokines and chemokines in apparently healthy men
2. Cytokine-Associated Emotional and Cognitive Disturbances in Humans
3. Acute inflammation and negative mood: Mediation by cytokine activation

Fucking ass. No wonder I'm ready to throw myself under a bus. Goddamn body.